finaz kdr

Ramadhan (:

2011-08-04T23:19:00.002+08:00

Selamat berpuasa to all muslims x

May this month be filled with serenity, tranquility and patience. i have to admit, this is prolly some of the toughest challenges i have to face/am facing emotionally and mentally this month but insyaAllah, i will pull through. again, i would like to wish selamat hari rayer! haha i mean in advance. take care darlings.

what am i longing for?

2011-07-18T23:07:00.002+08:00

mistakes are meant to be learnt. are meant to make you stronger. are meant to make you wiser. it depends on how's your perspective towards that particular mistake you made. i have made couples of mistakes within my stay in ttsh. and i learnt.

i have or rather am facing so much challenges right now. at times, i feel so demoralized by them but ahh fuck it. fuck it is the keyword to a positive mindset. haha okay doesn't really sound positive does it?

i wish you guys the best in life. the best in everything you. God bless. take care faithful readers xx promise to come up w a more interesting one ;)

in remembrance of the strong man

2011-05-12T12:40:00.003+08:00

everything happened too fast. i can't quite believe my one and only grandfather left on earth is gone. he's gone for good, i'm sure. the moment sis told me he had passed away, i really thought she was joking. i was otw back from work. i texted sis again to reassure. she replied w a betul la sial in the text. the word sial indicated that it's true cause it very well showed that she was pissed i regarded that as a joke. upon knowing the truth, i ran my way from ubi to my place as i was taking bus 5(it doesn't stop directly at my area) and i know i had to rush. i have never ran in public alone before besides cross country. -.- anyway,

when i reached my aunt's place, there laid atok on the bed motionless. the feeling was indescribable (not in a good way) my heart sank like the sunken ship titanic. started tearing up upon kissing his forehead. everyone was in tears.

the second day was way emotional than i ever thought it would be. atok was covered in white. extreme sadness took over. the people whom i did not expect to cry, did. my brother was one of them. i didn't expect him to sob in such a pitiful manner. my little cousin, darwisy was another. he was sobbing as if he was being abused. it was abs emotional.. after that, headed to the cemetery for burial. that was my first time ever witnessing my loved one being buried. the 21 yr old imam (yes, extremely young. hats off to him. i'm impressed to a large extend) talked bout the afterlife. that we shouldn't neglect the five times daily pray etc.

it was like an electric shock penetrating through my body.

i've been sobbing for days. only time is gonna heal everything. i can't even remember when was the last time i communicated w atok.

i love you atok Man. you're a funny humbled responsible caring pious man. you'll always be in my memory. i may not be your best grandchild but you're my best. Rest in Peace :')

rolling in the deep

2011-05-03T22:31:00.006+08:00

heyyyyyy you, yes you, hows you?

i have so much to share but just doesn't have the time to do so. been extremely busy and i could not do anything bout it. work is challenging as well. working in a fast-paced environment for the first time is undeniably pressurizing and can be nerve-wrecking. but insyaAllah i can manage (: everyday, i keep telling myself, finaz you can do it. haha it's a regular chant now..

yes, ive been in a diff situation whereby i was thrown to assist a demanding doctor and he was nagging bout how i should catch up for there were 30 patients in line. at that point of time, i felt like the whole world just crumbled on me. my buddy was out to grab smth and so i was left alone. i was like fucccccck somebody saves me. i'm gonna have to assist alone the next time :/

besides that, i've to see things i never thought i would have to handle/see. well well no point complaining and such, no point worrying as well. i gotta do what i gotta do

and check this out. the other day i accompanied sis to this small yet kind of luxurious hotel for she has planned smth for a friend of hers. well i was there to help and so i took advantage of the situation. amek gambar la ape lagi. the main lobby was so beautiful. loving the furnitures and such. but shy to take pictures there. hehe

i wish you guys a blissful day ahead. xox!

teh tarik on Mundane(monday)

2011-04-18T11:37:00.009+08:00

am watching britney's videoscope on channel V now. missing my childhood days so much upon hearing her songs :/

but anyway, i've been hanging out in pasir ris for God knows countless times this week. had bbq w some of my closest classmates. had a lot of fun (: it was really a nicely spent saturday where endless flow of conversation and laughters filled the entire night. wish could experience that daily.. i almost thought i was gonna miss out the fun as i was down w a sudden stomachache. i had already tapped in to the mrt station when i had stomach attack. lol i was cursing continuously dalam hati. but i managed to survive. heh. actually i dont hafta share that part uh. not necessary sia finaz.

so how have YOU been doing? :)

pretty excited yet nervous to start work next week. am afraid if im left w no one to go lunch w :( i'm gonna have to put up a thick face and said "can i join you guys?" oh gosh. as u know my working environment is mostly girls and girls are bitchy. ive had enough of bitchy girls, can't stand them. what more bitchy boys. eeeeyikes

okay, making teh tarik now. ngahaha eh you should try my teh tarik. it's nice. hehe toodles! xx

and this is leticia when she was primary four. yar i know very pretty..

big girl

2011-04-11T17:26:00.006+08:00

hi my lovely avid readers. thanks for still sticking around.

since i'm finally free, i'll update few short stories aite. i'm currently in a 'superman' position lying on the floor as my sister's laptop was unable to function normally and hence, it could only be placed on the ground. only God knows how much my back and ribcage hurts now. lol that idiot is using my laptop as she needs to study and so i gave in. sigh i'm too nice

anyway i have found a perm job. Alhamdullillah (:

so now i can shop my ass offffffffff even though the pay tak seberape but it will rise over time, i hope. i mean, of course. heh

a clue bout my job is it's a contradiction to what i did in poly. doing it for experience.

enough bout work, im already too stressed up bout the uniform. everything i wear are singkat. the blazer is singkat and so is the pants. -.- i dont wanna be the singkat girl. haha k lame. sorry. shall stick to wearing skirt then.

can't believe i'm in adulthood now. wtf yet nice feeling at the same time..

when the day gets tougher

2011-03-24T11:20:00.003+08:00

i am currently down by the fact that the bump on my eye could not go away.

and that i have to see an eye doctor to see if it can be removed. it's honestly disappointing and the thought of it makes me lose my appetite and mood :( i find it hard to smile at times but i know there sure is a solution to it. tough days are here :/

finding a job is equally diff as well. but i know i can't give up now..

olivia plm

2011-03-20T20:23:00.008+08:00

every girl sure has one or two celebs they look up to as inspirations.

well for me, i sure do. i really like her style from head to toe. to me, she's totally gorgeous and undeniably fashionable. i can't judge on how her life must be like. but it seems like her life is fortunately complete. she has a good looking beau, good career blah blah blah. envy, totally. One Day :) good day

and look at them. they still look eclectic despite the mis-match color(referring to whit)

if We, the typical are gonna wear such, we are gonna look like wannabe trying too hard to strut our ass along that pathway.

goodbye temasek

2011-03-19T00:42:00.016+08:00

ola (; am proud to say that i have managed to complete my life as a student in poly. three years passed by too quickly i hadn't have the chance to get to know better some of my classmates. but i'm glad i met some which are still sticking around (:

it's kind of sad to leave school but life goes on. my most memorable moment in tp has got to be the first day of orientation. the first day determined the rest of the days. it didn't feel like it was three years ago. it felt like it was just last week. okay im kidding. but anyway, look at this certificate of mine. Zzzzz earlier today i passed it to my dad and he returned w a wide mac donald smile. alright dad -.-

went for a k-box session w the classmates and had lots of fun. they all fall asleep when i started singing isabella. okay guys no slow mo song the next time. :p happy farewell ceremony to ya'll we're graduating comes may! woot woot.

i have so much to express but you guys just might doze off. just wanna share w you all these!

these are only available at singgah selalu, jb. fucking nice siak. take a bite of the kway teow goreng and you'd be rolling your eyes inwards. okay whatever that means. everything there are niceee. the only obstacle was a young boy who started throwing a ball (it's no soft ball, it's kind of hard almost felt like a bowling ball) the ball hit my head. biadap nak mampus! of course i was mad. it hit my cous's head too. if i was his parent, i'd have spanked his small ass!??! it's not funny young boyyyyyy.

well now, let me share my one day trial at bla bla shall not revealed the childcare centre's name. it was a disastrous, i thought. i'm gonna be honest. i'm very picky when it comes to handling/entertaining kids. i like the fat and chubby and ergh, of course the adorable ones. there was one particular kid who looked very cheeky. he looked like he was flirting w me and the other teachers. he even hugged me. okay that's fine. but there was phelgm all over his baju. apart from him, there was this malay kid who actually bit my hand. wtf? do my hand looked like a hamburger to you? it's all skeletons and bones sia. he was salivating and it was all over my hand. i've no idea how many times i made a trip to the tois on that day to wash my hand. not only that, he hit my hand continuously. he really think it's funny. he slapped my hand and waited for me to have eye contact w him and then giggled and run. mampus -.- tapi cute giler ah. grrr

am i over-reacting? it was really cute of them to act that way and i wish i could strangle and pinch and kick their asses (in a good way) but i can't because i had to guide the rest too in terms of drawing etc. i don't know maybe i'm not used to handling kids. they were running all over the project room. *faint* one kept saying bout how handsome his dad was (-________-) while the other kept singing to himself. i even had to put them to sleep. i already have my favorite boys there. they were very obedient and i wish i could bring them home. but yeah :/

i'm not already sure if this industry is for me. i'm gonna have to search. these hands gotta keep searching and these eyes can't stop looking just yet..

don't be a drag, just be a queen

2011-03-06T23:28:00.006+08:00

how could you not call me? you didn't even bother to check on my true/hidden potentials.

anyway, another resume sent. i'm looking forward to a positive respond. this is so pressurizing, at the same time torturous mentally. but anyway, im keeping a positive mind. yeap

besides that, meet up w the besties on a weekend was naisee(isn't that how it was spelt out like these days) it was fun and it felt almost complete that the three of us were that. the job fair over at suntec city was a disappointment. an overwhelming feeling of regret for turning up. it was a waste of time and yeah, transport fare as well. but nevermind that all. at least i know not to turn up for any other job fairs provided the jobs i wanted are stated specifically. FIRST LESSON LEARNT for the month of march.

and my birthday's coming in like twenty days time? so are you gonna ask me what i want? this year i requested for a 2 in 1 handbag from my mom. 2 in 1 means i can wear it based on two purposes (for rayer & other events) this is so exciting.. and.. (i know it's merepek but im kind of nervous bout me turning 21) maybe it's due to the fact that i am growing, i am not a YOUNG teenager anymore but rather, a grown up teenager. a lot more responsibilities coming in fo sure. Life.

and me and my eating habits are getting out of control. everywhere i go, all i see are good scrumptuous influential looking food. i can't help it but to gaze at em for a second or two w jaws wide open (nah, im exaggerating) hehe

anyway,

goodnight to you my dear ones. hugs and mwaaaah.

feb-bulous

2011-02-25T00:34:00.009+08:00

life has bever felt so free after the end of attachment, project etc. just finished my internship a week ago. life has been less hectic ever since. however, i still am busy as ever been. busy editing my resume, busy tutoring and etc.

i really miss my internship. the most memorable moment during my last day was.. i taught my colleague mathematics! :) my head supervisor was there too. haha! i thought she was just another arrogant, fierce head supervisor bcos you know, they have every right to point a finger at you. ya ya papaya. but she has her nice soft spot too ;) i mean we all are humans afterall. do u know how it feels like to be doing smth nice on your last day? it feels fucking awesome. i thank God for giving me the courage to tutor this subject which i used to hate frigging much. you always end up doin the things you despise the most. that is a fact. you dont run away from it.

but it has got to make sense as well. if you hate a pig and its not halal would you eat it? no. thats what im talking bout.

anyway, been busy helping out my aunt for her make up trials for the past 2 days. it was a good experience for me for i had the chance to be a 'bride' for a day or two. the second day i was made to put on a red dress. her make up was awesome. but i felt that my features arent strong enough to pull of such a strong edgy look. my first time putting on sucha thick make up. imagine having 4 layers on foundation of your face? heh. anyway, good experience. if i had one wish on my birthday, i wanna have the "victoria secret theme". i mean i want to be dolled up just like them, the hair, the make up, everything uh. the only difference is they wear lingerie but i wanna wear a cute dress! make my wish come true?

what's a girl to do.

2011-02-12T23:14:00.007+08:00

everyones meant to do/accomplish something in their life.

no matter how confused you are now, there is def something

anyway, did a little shopping here and there. what's a girl to do. we all love shopping so much no matter how broke we are

buying a piece of haircip can already craves a smile on my face. haha gila i know. when im feeling all stressed up, i shop. when i feel insecure, i shop. when am at the lowest point of my life, i shop. when im feeling all boring, i shop. i am no materialistic girl. i buy what i need first rather than what i want all the time. we shouldnt entertain our nonsense crave for a crazy number of handbags/shoes. i understand that all girls wanna have expensive pieces of handbag or shoes or whatever, i would love to have them too. i mean would love to have IT too. yes, im someone who sticks to one at a time. i just need one. but i dont mind havings lots of the cheaper one. ;)

anyway, i love room makeovers. i am so def into rooms decorations and i watch all kinds of house renovations programs on tv. if i have the talent, i would love to be an interior designer. ahh go on, laugh at me. by all means i accept. haha but anyway, i would surely do something extravagant to my room once my sis gets married or smth. it's gonna be my very own sweet little spaceeee ;)

love,

ahh a long post from miss been busy like a bee :)

2011-01-24T09:07:00.007+08:00

a month more before i am done with sip. wohoo this feels so good. three months came and passed by so quickly. everything that came fast, left fast too.(ok this pretty sound like a broken eng but you get the idea) just like people. oh dear as im typing this out, i feel like i should start brushing up on my english. but anyway, i really am anxious as to what's in store for me in future. i am so worried for my future because i want the best for myself. i mean who doesnt want the best for themselves? whatever it is, heads up. okay next

being in nccs has been okay so far. i met friendly stall holders who always teased/are teasing me for buying the same dish almost daily (but not anymore, i'll share w u ltr) they are so amicable and you felt welcome to buy food at their stalls. aww hugs for them. hahaha its completely opposite to the one at kopitiam, sgh. the malay girl is so fuccccked up. first, she has a high pitch voice which is piercing to the ears, secondly, she is not even close to friendly she sounds like shes in a rush and if you're one second late, shes gonna bash u up. damn girl, you're better off being a man. you're seriously scaring all the customers away. even the aunties in kopitiam are fucked up too. what is wrong w u people? menopause isit!? m nvr coming back there ever again okay. poor customer service. tsk okay whatever.

back to angsana cafe, i have stopped buying the same dish as i realised they have a list of menu of good food. lol like after 3 months then i realised? stupiakk. and so i'll be trying out all of them. i really mean ALL of the them.

ok enough bout food.

ive came across couples of cancer patients. when i look at them, i tell myself, finaz, youre lucky, you have healthy parents, healthy people around. so that makes me a more thankful person.

after this, i dont know what job to take. but one thing fo sure, i'll grab any opportunity right in front of me. im willing to learn. and i have got no time to waste. be it on f.up people or things. have a blissful day ahead. xx!

goodnight 2010.

2010-12-30T10:39:00.006+08:00

hey you, hows you? rather than staring into the walls blankly and stoning away, its best i update this space. 2010 is coming to an end. what is ur best moment for 2010? i dont have any 'best' moment but i have several good moments like being able to watch the yog opening ceremony for free, entrance to uss for free. haha everything free :) but anyway, the best of all things is i am glad that my bestfriends are still circling around me and that we are still together and i know they are the one i can really turn to. thankyou. hugs for you guys aite. i am glad that my family are all in the pink of health. Alhamdullillah.. i know i have alot to improve on. i will regard 2011 as another opportunity God has given to step myself up. and so i wish you guys all the best in 2011 may you get whatever uve aimed/wanted all along. as long as there's effort, nothing can go wrong. whatever situation ure in, just smile. smile and you'll see the light at the end of the tunnel. xoxo!

we can be anyone we want.

2010-12-04T12:33:00.007+08:00

im still alive. :)

been very busy w work and too lazy to even update this space. 2 more months to go before starting on something new. stress just thinking bout the future. i dont even know whats my ambition. people asking me to join this join that as if i have all the confidence in the world. hmm i think my punctuality record has definitely gone down the drain. the numbers of minutes late is increasing over time. im in no further motivation to go to work for my pay is still not in. it's going 2 months okay! :( hello, am i invisible to you? GRR

grey.

2010-11-14T13:13:00.005+08:00

good mrn :)

just wanna say that i miss school. work has changed my life is so many ways.

first, boarding the train as early as at 7 plus suck. cannot take it. im always rushing and have to endure the smell of people who didnt bath early in the morning. i just miss the food in school. its cheap and nice. i miss the short dist from home to school. i miss how i can wake up late. i miss how im able to skip classes. i miss how i can catch up w the besties frequently back then. i miss taking bus 8 which takes only bout 10 mins to school. i miss walking along the bridge. i miss bumping into friends in school. i hate the fact that i have to sit for 8 hrs daily and my butt just might expand like those nyonya out there. hate the fact that the food is ex and the amount of caffeine in my body is increasing for i have to consume it daily in order to stay awake. and now that im addicted to it, i drink it on non-working days too. hate the fact that im always stucked w c*****. sometimes it gets pretty boring. but on a brighter note, i am slowly getting hold of it. they say, take one step at time, there's no need to rush. so yeah.

and paranormal activity 2 suck. dont bother watching it please. okay i might be slow. but dont watch it. hahah i can create a better storyline than that. seriously. listening to mj12 is so much scarier. listening to my friends ghost stories are so much thrilling than that.

anyway, wishing all my fellow muslim buddies hari raya hajj in advance! lots of love! bye

Muthu has got some nice curry ;)

2010-10-30T23:14:00.007+08:00

had fish head curry and some other dishes over at Muthu's curry earlier today.

it was me and sis's treat for ibu's pre-birthday celebration. happy birthday ibu! love you momsy!

will upgrade to a better gift next yr kalau ade rezeki. insyaAllah ;)

ahh that's her on the extreme right. lol !

anyway, the dish are all awesome. cant get over everything there. the cheese nan too! damnnn.

the curry was so awesome that it would leave you smiling throughout while eating. macam orang giler.

did a little shopping. bought shout magazine just for the glitter eyeshadows. it's all worth it babe ;) the gold one looks awesome on the eyelid! so natural, so soothing. love it.

waiting anxiously for my pay now before i can get my hands on all the good stuffs in the world. actually, i cant really spend =/ but whatever. still gonna spend anyway. okay chokeslam me now?

work is fine. sometimes, it gets pretty boring having to face the same windows 2000 pc. do me a good favour by upgrading pls! i miss my laptop more whenever i use the pc at work. they are like beauty and the beast. haha right, im gonna turn in now! my dark circles are darkening. gosh! i never thought i would have to apply more concealer now. used to apply a little but now.. it's better off not being mentioned eh. btw, just curious. some girls put on concealer like they are putting tons of eyeshadow around the eye area. it's so white that they actually look funny. dont you girls notice that? i understand that you girls have very bad dark circles. but.. at least maintain ah the concealer. lol

good weekend! and happy deepavali in advance to my fellow indian mates. xx!

running with blood on my knees.

2010-10-25T13:11:00.005+08:00

wow been quite some time since i blogged. really wonder who's reading my blog. i must the only retarded girl reading it. anyway, gonna spend the weekends wisely. they are very much precious to me now. and i definitely understand why its tgif. it didnt affect me in any single way back then. but now, i wish i could hug the weekends & never let go of them. haha. let me share with you avid readers a lil bit about my attachment in nccs.

first & foremost, there's no interesting view from my seat, no waterfalls no nothing, other than the whiteboard/divider infront, the four walls surrounding me. how does it sound to you? yeah it sounds like shit. but im getting used to it or rather, im loving the privacy we are given. ;) i could cross my leg, sit with legs apart, no one will care. haha its more to a typical admin environment and thus, more laid back. no professional it firm is "in the air" there. i could laugh like a pontianak & no one will care. maybe im lying. im sure they will

i could put on anything i want as long as it looks semi formal. Alhamdulillah. cos if i were to have to wear formal daily, i'd prolly wear the same shit every now & then. at times, i was too sleepy that i pretended i was actually reading from the pc's screen when i was actually dozing off. it felt so good to shut these tired eyes just for a minute or two. sometimes up to 20 mins. haha

and yeah, the pantry was small but they have awesome 3 in 1 nescafe. that is gonna be my daily drink. and what can i say? save $! muaha. and the nasi lemak costs 1.60 after 10%(or was it 20%) discount! yeah theres discount for staffs. but the egg is smaller than my nose. wtf right? im gonna bring that up to the waiter soon. haha we could enjoy the discounts even in sgh. however couldnt be bothered to walk till sgh. unless there's famous amos there. or, sweettalk(everyone likes koi but im sticking to sweet talk ;)

travelling all the way to outram via train is purely fucked up. the train is so infested with all kinds of human beings and some even bothered to communicate though they are a distance apart.. kanchong aunties pushing around. stupig! whatever make you guys happy. pfft

good morning internship.

2010-10-03T23:09:00.011+08:00

attached to national cancer centre. attachment starts tomorrow! im so glad that agnes is with me cos if not, i would be tossing around here and there stressing out my mind on how to get there on my own. trust me im going to lose my way like how i lost my way INSIDE mbs. in fact, worst! will do some head scratching every 100 m. gonna miss times like this! heh.

will be doing some website design. hope its gonna turn out good. insyaAllah. still pondering on how the environment is gonna be like. so its true, the more you tried to avoid smth, the more u'll get it. the reason i didnt take up nursing is because.. the environment, the place, HOSPITALS. and look where the hell am i posted to. haha best of luck to me! but still, im feeling all excited about it!

and just so you know, mp for me and my group mates are still on. lol its nvr gonna end untill next feb. still working on my fb feature. the thought of it makes me wanna laugh. at times, i dont even feel like switching on my laptop. switching on laptop means alot of stuffs to be done. so its better off not being switched on. heh

The Real Pochong.

guys, you should watch this. i find it utterly scary. provided you watch it at night. but not for the weaker ones. can gives you one helluva nightmare! since im a regular mj12 listener, its a no problem for me. :p and i love the little girl! her acting is brilliant and shes so adorable wish i could pinch her cheeks and stuffs apples into it. lol and nothing beats a lady with long hair looking mysteriously eerie. you can make up a girl to look like a toyol but truth be told, people will laugh more than they cry. really.. and since when toyol is a girl?

Major project pre-celebration.

2010-09-29T12:35:00.003+08:00

all dressed up formally. mentally prepared. all excited & nervous to present.

and guess whats the next big thing? presentation was postponed to the following friday. Zzzzzz

just when i thought i could get over it quickly and enjoy the week before sip starts, at least.

actually its beneficial for me as i could have more time to work on my facebook feature. but im getting tired or rather BORED of trying to fix it already. but still, i wont stop trying. hehe

anyway, me and the girls had a pre-celebration for mp. lol

we had pitzas followed by smth smth fudge aka ugly cake (im not making this up) a slice of cake was shared amongst three person. how cute. it was quite big so it was okay. and its expensiveeeeeeeee. so its better off being shared. heh

hopefully can go for manicure this friday right after presentation. just so me and agnes could flaunt our going- to -be- heavenly polished nails on the first of work. lol

& guess what? i wore aboy's fat crocs to my neighbor house for jln raya. it was big, ugly and so funny. it was just nearby and i was lazy to put on my heels. haha couldnt imagine wearing it throughout the day. gonna have eyes staring at it. that day sum up the end of jalan raya for me and my family. done with it. i havent had enough of all the kuehs. im still craving for kueh tart. :/

mp is messing up my mind.

2010-09-25T12:41:00.004+08:00

report is done done done.

my facebook feature is still not able to work. i hope they could see the amount of effort ive made. i feel like im in a deep shit ): wish me good luck? i wont wanna repeat this again. its a nightmare. it has moulded me into a different person(not in a good way) in terms of my level of insecurity. i couldnt help but to think of all the negativity EVERY SINGLE DAY. can you imagine that? but still, i braced/is bracing myself up. just so you know, ive been repeating modules all my life and hope to put a stop to that. i'll be hoping.. okay i sound desperate. I AM, INDEED. i never though IT would leave a big impact on me.

this must be one the worst phase of my life. i barely have proper sleep these days. i would either sleep soundly for the first 2 hours only to wake up with a nightmare. or, insomnia throughout the night and only sleeps at 6 in the morning. orrrrrrrrrr, sleep with a broken smile. lol

besides that, managed to fully participate in napfa test. (finally)

believe it or not, for the first ever throughout my entire life, that was the first time i jogged continously for 2.4. i did not even stop or walk. lol my tip? this is gonna sound stupid but put one hand on your hips. seriouslyyyy. that helps alot.

okay im in no good mood to carry on with this. have a great weekend. xx

a night at universal studio.

2010-09-17T14:25:00.003+08:00

jalan raya with the girls on wednesday afternoon. ♥ it was fun though only the 3 of us. supposed to watch 'hantu jamu gendong' over at nad's place but ended up sharing ghost stories amongst each other instead. was really scared at that point of time. muaha so much for the thrill out of sharing it!

received a free ticket from yog to uss on thursday! and me being me, i was really excited and jakun throughout the entire trip. lol thanks yog. though you kept me waiting, it's all worth it;)

took around five rides. (i guess) enjoyed all of them except CAROUSEL. lol it was fucking embarrassing. both mingyan & agnes were quite a distance away from me and i was there stucked on the small seat.. looking pathethically shy. even the girls next to me were looking rather slumber too. i didnt know to scream(what's there to scream anyway?) or what and thus, i kept smiling to myself. HAHAHA the ride was bullshit. it would have been more fun if it is going at a faster speed. at least can scream but Zzzz. whatever rides you feel like taking, don't take the carousel.

watched shrek 4d (finally! been hearing people talking bout it but didnt get to feel what its like)

it was funnnnnnnnn. love it :) i was really scared cos it felt like the image is gonna get me anytime soon. heh

and took the.. rollercoaster (smaller version) i thought it was just a kental one and that nothing thrilling or whatsoever. in the end, i ended up screaming throughout the ride. LOL wtf. felt like my heart is gonna jump out of my body. i even uttered some prayers silently. hahaha its frigging thrilling. i wonder what it felt like to take the panasonic. heard its the biggest amongst the other uss in the world. WOW that is challenging. and i love challenges (yeah right!) im gonna faint while taking the ride i bet and God knows how many strands of hair i would leave behind.

cut it short, the rides were all awesome :)

we even had a $10 fnb voucher. had big double burger at Mel's. i wasnt very hungry but picked the more expensive one. taking advantage of the free voucher. hee and guess what? the guy who served us was so good-looking that me & agnes couldnt stop staring at his face. dapat eye contact pun jadi lah. heh. bet hes been getting a lot of phone calls from all those cheeky girls out there. yawns

im still aiming for panasonic!

SHR xx

2010-09-12T22:09:00.008+08:00

raya was fun fun fun.

reason being there's kueh, green packets and most importantly, meet the loved ones.

alot have been asking if im working or still schooling. they even thought i lied. lol how sad.

im so sick of wearing heels and wish i could put on sandals or better still, SLIPPERS. seriously i dont understand how some girls could put it on daily. maybe its just me. i hate heels i hate heels i hatee them. my feet is aching now and i need to take a break before putting it on again on.. wednesday (i think)

have been consuming alot of food ranging from lontong to kueh tart, cookies, rendang and the rest of the typical kueh. i even finished up cornflakes from this particular house. (you shouldnt be shy when it comes to eating) my dad always act shy when i know his stomach is suffering. haha

been goin out 3 days straight and i wanna faint now. frankly, theeres not a tinge of excitement for me to do my project alr. D pun jadi la seriously. malas ah. im still in raya mood uh. is it wrong to feel this way? =/

and.. mel turns 20

Happy 20th to you!

this must be my third wish for the day? lol i hope you arent irritated mel. haha im abit greedy when it comes to wishing people.

we're all twenty now, all grown up but still childish as ever. heh. esp me.. i dont even think like a 20.

anyway see you soon babee! xoxo :))))))

The book of B.. elieve

2010-09-08T23:54:00.005+08:00

managed to install flex builder at last! the feeling is indescripable.

anyway, i just couldnt seem to find the appropriate codes to upload image to fb wall. someone help me? =/

anyway, cut the crap.

A DAY MORE TO RAYA. cant wait to savour all the nice beautiful scrumptuous looking kueh - mueh :) Selamat hari raya in advance to all you beautiful people out there. hope you guys enjoy and not get greedy over the green packets. im gonna chase away kids who wanna visit my house just bcos of green packets. im serious. its not funny.. if you want green packets go and visit some bungalows. you think funny isit, knock on people's door, making innocent faces requesting to let you in, sit, take a sip of coke, eat some kueh, make a mess on the table and chair and off you go. very rude!! no manners. (my very own special perspective on these kids) hah

The Friendly Next-door-Aunty.

anyway ysday while accompanying mel at the salon, a makcik talked to me about her past.. illness. it touched me a little. she has indeed shared with the right person;) anyway the part where she mentioned about her hairloss was really touching. she must be really strong that God has picked her to go through that phase of life. whatever it is, hope shes always in a good condition. my weakness is.. anything that concerns health. i am very particular and is afraid if any of my loved ones would fall sick.

The thrill of getting a new make-up.

guess what? recently i just bought M.a.c powder foundation. frankly, i wasted 2 nights pondering on it. couldnt believe i actually spent on something costly for the first time (in terms of make up) i am an anything person. i put on cheap make ups etc. im no brand conscious but came to realise that you pay more, you get better quality. decided to give it a try cos ive always wanted make up which lasts. i mean who doesnt want to? the first time i applied it, i looked freaking dark and looked like i did not put on anything. it was terrible and i felt.. lost. yes, i felt lost. haha wtf. the 2nd day, i put on again and still, the same result. i was utterly devastated. my mom put on and even she, doesnt look good putting it on. the next day, i tried applying it again, this time without the use of mosturizer and it fucking works! i look fairer and i look like im wearing something on my face -.- and my pores are less visible. Alhamdullillah.

When your throat suffers..

the next issue im facing is.. sorethroat. been having it since the third day of ramadhan. on and off. MEAN CYCLE. the worst i ever had was 2 days ago. it ached like fuck and i felt like im swallowing rocks. NOT JOKING. can you imagine swallowing your own saliva is like swallowing mini rocks. my throat felt so tight that i couldnt help but to.. break down and cry. muahaha kental

S.I.P

the final issue is, i have yet to receive the sip notice :( when will i ever be notified? i am damn right anxious. i dont wanna hafta do IT all my life. GOSH dont wish to have grey hairs like the 'IT savvy' people do! eew. they earn so much but refuse to dye their hair. oops you have to agree on this.

popeye, im olive.

2010-09-02T13:07:00.005+08:00

had popeyes with the much missed girls ysday night.

the chicken was okay compared to arnold. arnold chicken was like tender juicy good. actually all chicken tastes the same. its the skin that has different tastes and between juicy and non-juicy. but guess too bad i didnt eat the skin. i need someone who 's able to teach me 'the best way to eat a chicken'. i miss eating at arnold but the queue is like %$3@4!325#!! they should actually expand the place dont you think so? what is so difficult about expanding? JUST EXPAND LA! haha if you can expand the road side, why not arnold? :)

anyway, we presented lyn her 3 months ago birthday gifts. lol you must be wondering what took us so long to pass her the presents? babe if you reading, hope you love it! :) so whose birthday's up next? mine is 6 months from now.

thought of goin geylang but ended up hanging out at tamp mac'ds anyway.. from the start till the end, the apek beside us was still sleeping. the best part was, he had a drink on his table. and guess what drink? soyabean? no. it's COFFEE. is he trying to prove that coffee will make you sleep? whatever his intention is, he's scaring all the coffee lovers.

i wish you guys a great day ahead. guess what? 8 DAYS TO RAYA. WTF!?? i mean.. WOW?

you have no idea how anxious i am right now.

2010-08-30T17:43:00.008+08:00

i feel so.. ERGH

been trying to install flex builder 4 but attempt FAILLLL when i have already uninstalled the previous one because it has already expired.

been doing it fer countless times and just realised that silly me has been wasting alot of time fer carrying out the action above repetitively :(

just when i am so motivated to do my work and yeah, who knows it might work?(the facebook app) who knows rightt.

on a brighter note, i am enlisted to work for the IT fair. Alhamdullillah at least i could earn some cash. anyway, i hope Agnes & Mingyan would be enlisted too.

random circumstance.

2010-08-26T22:44:00.002+08:00

JUST HOPE MAJOR PROJECT WILL END VERY SOON BECAUSE IM TIRED OF FEELING THIS WAY - incapable

i smell something.. someone's baking.

2010-08-25T13:58:00.004+08:00

i am thinking about major project it's due in an estimation of 3 weeks time and i think i am in a very deep shit.. besides that i am pretty much excited fer rayer as fer the first time im wearing a different color.. lol im wearing cream and i think im gonna look kind of old but, f i. meanwhile im craving fer lots and lots of kueh rayer and im gonna hafta apologise to my relatives beforehand bcos if their kueh keep decreasin, it must be because of me oops :) and finally i have found the right layout.. something simple and yeah i love it i am tired of altering the codes from blogskins.. Selamat Berbuka to all of you. i mean to those who puasa stngah hari. ;p

light it up like it's dynamite.

2010-08-17T12:29:00.011+08:00

24 DAYS TO HARI RAYER ;)

finally done with volunteering at mmc. it wasn't as I expected it to be. we did nothing much, just slacking and talking most of the time in the IT store. the store doesnt look like one. it is so spacious and nice. our duty was to help the media people if they need help. most of them were journalists/reporter/cheeky cameramen (lol) and ya. i have a crush on one of the angmoh. he is really cute. i can still remember his face till now. he is bloody cute uh more like it. ngaha i wish i could be his laptop bcos he's with the laptop most of the time. tsk

i got lost fer a good 45 min on the 1st day. lol. i actually asked up to 5 people on where to proceed. they didnt really state the venue appropriately. i asked a freelancer and she said" i could show you if ure willing to run with me. " im like LOL okay anything. we ran or rather briskwalked and upon reaching the place, she just said "okay im really late gtg see you ard" then when i turned she was alr missing. lol thanks eh i still need your help man. i almost made my way out. like really gave up. embarrassing sia. and what more w the presence of the policemen. lol

anywayyyy, it was a major relief fer me as i thought i would ended up alone there but managed to widen my circle of friends instead. :) they were all friendly. i have always loved making new friends though i find it a hassle to keep introducing myself. we shared all kinds of ghost stories. (thats why you should start listenin to mj12 you just never know when ure gonna share it) and thank God there were some malays. if there werent any malay i would have to see the chinese enjoying their food. =/ the smell of the food was very much torturous.

besides that, managed to catch the yog opening ceremony fer freeeeeee w nad. the tics cost about 100+ /person and i got it fer free. not worth if you were to buy but fer my case, its really worth it. and we actually get to seat with the media. so its media seatings. haha its coooool. we were given priority and treated specially ;) this is once in a lifetime so yeaaaaah. really appreciate it :) the fireworks were splendid. unlike ndp, this one occurred more frequently.

the five days were very relax. right now, i am down with so many sickness. flu, sorethroat, cough etc. :( on the 1st day, i went back with fever. can you imagine, we were stucked in mbs fer a good 7 hours and suddenly, you were under the hot scorching sun. it's too sudden, a weather change and that explained the fever. i think. i am gonna miss the place but i miss my bed more :)

managed to buka with the besties on.. i have forgotten which day was it. tsk tsk had fun as it had been a long time since i laugh-ed that much! but i always feel guilty laughing that much. heh. selamat berbuka! x

buah zam zam air kurma.

2010-08-11T17:19:00.004+08:00

Happy fasting to all muslim out there :)

don't hide in the toilet & eat chocolates k (like what i used to do) keyword: used

and i remembered once where my grandparents stayed at my place fer about 2 months during ramadhan and hari rayer. terawih on every night. my idiotic sis was actually doing it too. lol she was laughing like a pig while praying!! tu mesti tak sah. what a waste.

haha wish you guys a blissful month xx

29 DAYS TO HARI RAYER.

45th (:

2010-08-10T00:43:00.005+08:00

happy national day to all (:

watched it from tv this time round. and well, what can i say. the parade was forever boring as it sounded! the only breath-taking moment was the fireworks. but i really love all the ndp songs. love her voice, very soothing and melodramatic. (i dont know if this is the right description) but yeah. i am thankful to be here, somewhere safe and really secure where there's no earthquake, tornado or whatever uninvited natural disasters out there. stay safe little red dot ;) should i post a picture of sg flag here? ngahaha err i doubt so. takecare guys.

my hands are searching for you.

2010-08-06T00:59:00.010+08:00

had a good lunch w nad, nurul and kama earlier today:) nice catchjng up w them after so long.

had nasi ayam penyet at lucky's plaza.

the quantity of rice was equivalent to the one i had when im sick. keyword: sick

it was very little. but the ayam was awesome.

and btw, the schedule suck like suckling pig(i dont know wtf is this btw). i have to work close to a good 9 hours. why am i feeling uncluky. why why why. tell me why.

okay guys enough of me ranting like a deprived girl. gonna look fer baju rayer tmrmw. so excited! the only issue i will be facing is, tangan singkat. i have extremely long hands if u ever noticed. i need to get an 'M' to have a better length but it's too big in terms of body what should i get? definitely too late to tempah. forget it. baju kurung kampung? baju kurung kelatan? or baju kurung payung. ngahaha none of the above i think. goodnight and have a great weekend. (;

Fiction.

2010-08-03T12:21:00.011+08:00

watched housefull ysday on mio. it was a hindi movie & quite a funny show. funny in the sense that it was unrealistic and crappy. and that what makes it funny. but it really made me laugh on my own (like really laugh) haha so yeaaaaaah. furthermore, my faveret actor is there. i could drool all day staring at his face. quite a waste hes not the main lead. the songs are all unpleasant btw.

im looking forward to watch SALT and grown ups. i wanna watch both so badly. SALT is a pretty interesting one. i still think angelina jolie's so much better than megan fox k. i never watch any of mf's movies. hahah i just realised that. i didnt even watch transformers. told you i hate robot shows. the only robot show i watched was irobot! hahaha. i watched iron man and regretted like shit. maybe it's just me. i am more to pursuit of happiness, sister's keeper, blood diamond, inception(padahal belum tgk.ngahaha :p). anyway back to my faveret, she looks cool whenever she starts taking out the guns and starts shooting. wish i could do that. ngahaha. but thanks to npcc i know how it felt like to hold a revolver. :) i nearly fly btw. (no, im joking) and pck movie is coming out! hahaha! :)

Being vulnerable doesn't has to be threatening. Just have the courage to be sincere, open and honest. This opens the door to deeper communication all around. it creates self-empowerment and the kind of connections with others we all want in life. Speaking from the heart frees us from the secrets that burden us. These secrets are what make us sick or fearful. Speaking truth helps you get clarity on your real heart directives. -

- Sara Paddison (this is so fucken true)

current likings.

2010-07-31T12:35:00.003+08:00

crush it bit lil bit.

2010-07-31T00:24:00.010+08:00

it was raining, wet and muddy.

went to napfa with my crocs on. i didnt know they would take it so seriously. (like whateverr ~ ) maybe i should learn to take things more seriously eh the next time. the oh-so-arrogant instructor immediately failed me. omg thank you so much :) at least i dont have to humiliate myself by doing the stupid shuttle run and standing broad jump. i would look fucking funny while running and jumping. i swear. i would look like those black guys on olympic games where their face muscles all stretched from left to right. i would look like a skeleton running. and more negative descriptions. i still couldnt forget agnes's comment. lol made my day uh.

anyway, i heard that i have to take the yog uniform alone too. im gonna hang myself now. hahaha

skyped w sis and she flaunted all the nice looking keychains. ergh she better buy me more stuffs cos im really keepin an eye on her cammie :p

cheeeyerrs

marchin' on.

2010-07-25T23:47:00.014+08:00

a day out w twinnie on the weekend. teeheee

as usual, window-shopped. been ages since we stepped into far east plaza eh. i always am confused between which shop is which. reason being they all look the same!

anyway, there were couples of funny incidents but i couldn't seem to recall them all. fishh. on one event, while at bk, a chinese boy was seen sitting alone while his dad bought the food (he can't be the one queueing up right) while waiting, he came up with funny actions. he was smiling(showing off all his baby teeth) to strangers. at first, i thought he was smiling to his relatives, but fact is no. while enjoying on his very own sit, moving his face vigorously from left to right, up and down, his saliva shot out from his mouth and landed on his shirt. (i feel like punching his face siak. bloody kid. hahaha) i cant stand shiok sendiri kids ah. i will want to scold them, slap their cheeks untill they cry.

moments later, his dad came back. he asked the boy why his shirt was wet. you know what he answered? 'the water on top dropped'. when there was no leakage. he will grow up to be a conman trust me. beware of him eh. he's wearing specs and a cap with him. ard the age of 6.

thanks to my kiasuness, managed to shift to a much more comfortable seat. hehe

while happily sitting eh, two bangla out of the blues came and sat beside us. ade jeee. though they were quite a distance away, people would prolly thought it was a blind date. gosh. ok la exaggerating,.

both of us esp (nad) had wobbly legs in the later part of the day. ngahahah wobbly reminds me of ducks. padahal no connection. trying my very best to catch up w the besties despite mp. :)

earlier today, watched the sorcerer's apprentice. both mingyan & agnes were excited to tweet but have no idea how to spell sorcerer, neither do i ! hahaha. i gave them the wrong spelling. lol kental sia. jay cute uh except that hes too skinny. but still cute! i gave 3.8 out of 5 popcorns. the movie was okay. pretty impressive.(actually im not really into these kinds of movies like of harry potter, percy jackson etc. just not into it. i dont know why i still watch them) have yet to watch inception! was alr imagining leonardo's face on the screen):

right now, im pretty depressed. my yog schedule really suck. first & foremost, im separated with the rest. and that really suck because i am alone. can you imagine others laughing away with their friends and ure sitting there ALONE. the keyword is alone. and that makes me depressed. why am i always separated. sumpah boleh nangis. second, i have fucking no idea how to get there. im alone remember? who can i go there with. you expect me to take cab there daily? 5 days consecutively? nak mampus. thirdly, it's fasting month. will have to wake up fer sahur at ard 4 plus. if i have to be there by 7.15, means i will have to get ready by 5 plus. and which also means, i should never get back to sleep. THIS IS SO NOT HAPPENING.

ketch-up.

2010-07-24T00:41:00.003+08:00

had a good catch up w arfah & jihah. ;)

dinner at breeks whilst jihah went fer job interview. had ceasar salad, which i mispronounced as 'kisar' salad. (AGAIN) thank goodness it wasn't me who ordered cos if i did, i have no idea where i'm going to hide my face. confirm the waiter will think i'm a malaysian.

afah hasn't changed much. pretty much the same.

i am so missing those secondary school days. remember where we used to dye our hair and got caught together? aww :) and mr tan thought i was being abused by my sister cos i had scratches & plasters all over my hands? hahaha! :) i think i can catfight pretty well uh;)

bam bam.

2010-07-22T00:46:00.006+08:00

i'm pretty annoyed that my playlist isn't as smooth as it should be!

sorry if it annoys u guys in a way. =/

well anyway, had a pretty good time w the girls. had ramen ten! (eh my first time eating there) lol it was nicee being my first time. hehe thanks to twinnie fer the recommendation. supposedly eat sushi as me and mel were craving fer it. but wth, no more promotion. ngahaha

nothing new with the tummy already. it looks unusually cute:) im okay with it. no complains. (yeah right!) even some plus size women have slim tummies ok! shame on me sia.

anyway, rip to the malay uncle who got involved in the freak accident. each time i think about it, my heart sank. his family had the same dish daily. and we? i always complain whenever mom cooks asam pedas cos i hate fish. i should be grateful the next time :( people out there are suffering. we have a shelter, we have almost everything we need. yet, we still complain. we have lovely parents who love us endlessly. yet, we raised our voices to them. we have a healthy mind and body, yet we still complain when we over-worked. :( overall, we dont always appreciate the people around us do we? that's bad guys.

fer now, i couldn't wait to get over with mp. it's just so boring now. can't wait fer the fasting month literally. to savour all the nice kueh, buy ramly burger, put on nice baju rayer, wear my heeeeels which have been surrounded by the cobwebs. gosh.

ramalamadingdong!

2010-07-14T01:51:00.011+08:00

after months of not tasting the beach, i finally did w geeharrrr :)

fer the first time went to the beach empty handed. not even a mat. soon after we shifted to a shelter nearby, a chinese couple sat at our former spot. the funny thing was, they were also mat-less. haha same spot, no mat. what was that supposed to mean? kept our bags in 'giant' plastic bags just so it wont get dirty on the sands. lepakk :)

Viva Espana (;

2010-07-13T01:16:00.003+08:00

at times, you need remedy in the midst of doing something.. major. :)

had thosai masala w/o teh tarik fer the first time. the thosai was satisfactory..

it wasn't as hot as it should be! hmph because if it is, it'd be perfectt. and wth, it feels so good to be honest.i managed to brisk walk back to the uncle and paid mingyan's prata kosong. ngahahaha it wasnt intentional reallyy! last but not least, viva espana! though they weren't my faveret, it was their first victory. awesomeee. paul the ocotopus, ure the king of fortune teller amongst the other animals. not even the parrot can take over you now. ngahaha

alrght babes, ttys. goodnightxx

Despicable.. me.

2010-07-10T10:03:00.008+08:00

good morning:)

psst twinnie, sorry stole your picture. teehee

watched despicable me with the girls on thursdayy! finally managed to catch up after continuously working on mp. (i cant wait fer sip, hoping it would not be an in-house one k please no )

anyway, you should really watch despicable me. two words. hilariously cute! that explained why the girl beside me couldnt stop giggling. lol

i really like agnes. feel like punching her upside down. i couldnt stand cute kids i will wanna kill them. hahaha ok did i just ruined my own reputation here? omg finaz.

anyway i wanna share something, my showed an online article of this particular canibal who ate up a german lady. it was really gross. err the article described what the lunatic did step by step in savouring the lady's body. ok im sorry for you guys who are having your breakfast now. i didnt know such a beast exist sia. f-ing pervetic dude! he claimed he really liked the lady so why the f he had to kill her right? gosh. you wouldnt wanna read on it. seriously, now i feel like throwing up alr.

anyway, hope we could catch grown up together:) would be more fun babes! loveslovexx

addiction.

2010-07-08T11:28:00.004+08:00

wow, what boring posts i have.

i dont even know what to blog about these days. other than whats been goin ard in sch? should i? no, maybe not. at least not today. ngaha

been eating prata w agnes and mingyan fer the past few days. well, not daily of course. we tried the one directly opposite school and it was really nice. really nice is not strong enough a description. it's fucking nice. haha sorry. i bought the egg prata reason being i have been craving fer eggs. (ya what a silly crave i had)

good day babe!.

Movie.

2010-07-04T12:39:00.006+08:00

love july.

so many good movies to catch up! grown up and despicable me especially! oh, and eclipsee.

grown up is a must(its gonna be shown on july right? haha confident). gonna make you shit in the pants! (im so sure) the trailer is so funny la. and agnes from dm is so adorable. argh pinch pinch her cheeks! need some pretty good humor to enlighten me.

make it rain, make it shower.

2010-06-30T11:35:00.006+08:00

Major project is one of those challenges in life.

the issues which have been stressing me out is to plan, contribute, carry out the tasks. i was wondering, what would other schools be doing for their mp? i always thought they were lucky for there were no codings involved. hmm. if only i know some professional programmer, life is going to be bloody good. hahah im gonna google and hire them to help me on my mp! the darker they are, the better! (indians are it savvy remember lol)

i cling to my imperfection,as the very essence of my being. - Anatole France

2010-06-29T00:05:00.009+08:00

up your service eh. very motivational video indeed.

interesting guy with the most interesting actions everr.

20 dollars for that? boleh beli nasi ayam sepuluh bungkus

ahh thats the charming guy.

play the game, play the game like nothing to lose

2010-06-24T18:44:00.004+08:00

this is gonna be tough.

having to bear with someone, like that frequently

neither do i have an option nor a way out.

if i have a way out, you would have been able to figure it out i assume

lemak bernasi nasi berlemak nasi lemak.

2010-06-22T00:25:00.006+08:00

baGUS is really good. (i just might be outdated) but well, its really niceeeeeee:)

i tried the seafood hor fun. it was really nice. i swear. couldnt find another pleasant term to describe it. ahh my mouth is watering just by the thought of it. everything there looks nice. it was fathers' day and i noticed something. most of the dads were sitting down. aww. so cute. it was their wives and kids who ordered. cute eh? heh.

at the very now, im craving for.. nasi lemak w telur burung, ayam and telur. hahaha tamak eh. why the hell must i brought this up at this hour. sheesh.

im gonna flood my bed with my mouth watering issue real soon.

ironically, i wanna share some other issue. on that very day itself, i ate vege potato snacks and it was effing salty that it was better off being spit out. unfortunately, the cubicle i weent it, the kid just passed motion. WHATEAFURTK. i couldnt take it, THE SMELL WAS HORRENDOUS. it smelled like it has been stored inside her tummy for 13 days. i even touched the door damn it! the kid went out w/o watching her hands! what kind of human being is that? EEW. since that day, i always wash my hand 13 times per day or perhaps even more. i even use tissues to open/close public toilets and tissue to press the flush button too. serious issue, it is!

goodnight! serious issue!

sid the science kid's 1st birthday.

2010-06-20T00:06:00.010+08:00

wah feels good to type this out while lying down. usually, when i placed my sis's laptop on my stomach, it felt like my stomach was set on fire. it was so hot to the extend that you can cook on my laptop. k lame.

earlier today was Danish's 1st birthday. believe it or not, he has grown up pretty much. my other cousins were right. danish really looks like a cartoon. from sid the science kid to tommy from rugrats. a mixture of both. ngahaha he has a dimple on his right cheek! grrrrr had nasi ambeng. i ate twice! muahaha i really picked on alot of side dish. sarah too! like i picked two meat instead of 1. one egg soaked in rendang dish (power gila) and yeah other typical ones. i ate the same thing in later part of the day. hehe fat girl fat girl. talking bout fat girls, i find them very cute. hehe

my uncle distributed mini cornetto ice creams and guess what? my another uncle, i repeat UNCLE was the first to voice out that he wanted it when the room was occupied with quite a no. of small kids. gosh. and its mini my dear. really small. i can like swallow the whole thing within 5 minutes or perhaps lesser (queen of food remember)

the only thing which messed up the day was the heat. i was sweating like an idiot and felt feverish. i slept for only 4 hrs the day before so that explained. dont ask me why i only slept for 4 hrs. i really suffered last night.

my gum is still swollen. hope it recovers soon :( sometimes i feel like slapping my cheek bcos it sorts of releases the pain. couldnt belive its the last day of holiday. nooooooo :(

and i would be fasting during yog(dont ask me why i opt to volunteer). i hope i would be able to handle it. InsyaAllah. pretty excited for rayer (which i dont know why -.- ) i have no idea what to put on this yr. baju kurung kampung je la eh.

i feeeeeeel better.

2010-06-14T12:07:00.012+08:00

good morning:)

guess what? i finally own a notebook! hehehe *blush* Alhamdullillah. been waiting since the day i stepped into tp. since year 1! so imagine.. the hardships/bitter moments ive endured. the catfights w my sis. ngahaha. and all thanks to mel darling! the one who told me about the IT fair and i think she knew i wanna get a netbook. however, i didnt get one as mel's bf claim it lags and that im so sure im gonna die there in case im pms-ing. lol. therefore, i bought LENOVO x100e! it's reddddd. never crossed my mind to get a red one. im a boring person. always wanted black. but i like red too of course. so yeaaaaaah. it's cool:) mel's one is black in color and mine red. how cute:)

the only thing which stresses me out is the webcam. i still couldnt find it up till now. lol

and i havent surf-ed the net yet due to risk of getting virus. i havent installed anti virus yet! help!

besides that, i got free make-up from my brother. lol. sounds wrong eh. he played soccer and received all that for.. free! there's maybelline magnum mascara(baik!), maybelline watershine pink lipstick(it suits me really well. thumbs up!), maybelline eye and lip remover (i need it just right!), loreal professional hair shine serum(good for my dry cabbage hair), loreal professional highlighted hair masque and shampoo(can give it to my cousin since she slept over my house and is still here.lol) seee! all what i need. ttys ~

animals zone.

2010-06-11T21:09:00.016+08:00

(they just love me.. i know. keep your comments to yourself. i know )

couldnt stop laughing at jihah's jokes yesterday. haiyaaaaaaaaa

that girl never stop cracking me up. i think i just might get fat if i meet jihah daily.

anyway, a picture speaks a thousand words. so you guys should be able to guess how chaotic the atmosphere was. jihah and her babies! lol. and im dying to shop! sales are freaking everywhere. *in a state of dizziness*

just wait ok.. just wait!

who could win a rabbit

2010-06-09T01:35:00.014+08:00

finally, managed to watch movie after weeks of rotting in school/home.

hahah actually i dont mind stayin indoors. less sun exposure and thus, fairer skin. need nt need to waste my time wearing fair and lovely or biotherm or whatever whitening products. haha

anyway, the killers was pretty hilarious. when nad first told me we were gonna watch killers, the first thing which struck my mind was .."the killers.. concert..!" lol. selenger nak mampus ah finaz. however, i know its not the killers concert like duhhhh. i din know there was such a movie. oh please ashton kutcher is so hot like triple mc spicy hotdog sausage chili bun. i still cant believe he literally kissed katherine heigl's boobs. lol. demi moore's gonna kill him, no?

karate kid is coming out and i wanna catch it. jaden smith is charming for a young boy. at such a young age, his body is already well-toned. wonder how he did that. i remembered watching pursuit of happiness where he was still a cute young boy with huge afro hair. muaha. and i managed to watch mtv movies award earlier today. kristen stewart won quite a no. eh. i think shes pretty-ly weird. and theres mtv world stage msia 2010. againnnnnnnnnnn? :( i wanna go laaa. hais

ouh i sure have something idiotic to share. after watching hair tutorials which my sis showed me on youtube, i feel inspired to have big locks on my hair(because my hair now looks like shit. shit is nicer than my hair). it's so gorgeous i swear. just by using hair curler. not as in the machine. its the diy hair curler. and silly me, i decided to try out and use the hair brush as an experiment. i twirled my hair around the hair brush like its a long day ahead. i even blow-dry it. lol. i wanna smack my head now already.. after some time, i decided to see the effect with extreme excitement. disappointingly, my hair got stucked in the hair brush and there was no way i was gonna get my hair out from that bloody maze. i struggled for about 1/2 or perhaps even more! i was jumping like a fat mad kid. it was horrible. i wanna scream and cry but i was tooshocked to do so. in the end, i pulled with all my mighty strength and cut the remaining. i was fucking mad that i threw the comb miles away from my face. the next day, i saw it in the basket again. FUCK. haha

anywayyyyy, hope to meet up with the besties soon. not 2, 3 but yes, the 4 of us. hehs

ttys!

2010-06-08T11:20:00.017+08:00

A Happy twentieth to curly wurly Lyn again ♥
we're all grown up.. 20 by age but still 17 at heart;) or in fact, younger. heh.
well, do drop by to my place anytime you feel like or by chance around my place k

alwaysssssss welcomeeeeee.
see you reaaaaaaal soon babe.

much love (: xx

kearb mert ;)

2010-06-07T13:13:00.023+08:00

oh gosh.
i need a superb break from studying which i already am. hehe (im not implying that ive been studying alot) its more of spending too much time trying to memorise all those banking factors. its killing me. my weekends are burnt, just like that. well, glad that its over. time to... tear and burn all the notes ive written. nghaha another good way to vent anger eh. :)
but seriously, sickening sia. i hate doin this, memorising for the past 3 days. im serious. and till the very now, i managed to memorise only this much.

besides that, managed to watch DARAH with my sis.. sidetrack abit while studying. the show is very annoying so pls dont watch. im not someone who watches gory stuff. i mean i would prefer horror as in the presence of ghost, doors shutting by themselves, that kind of horror. this ones GORY. and i hate it. i feel like smacking darah's face bcos she looks like some annoying geisha girl and the handsome guy doesnt seemed to die even after being burnt! nonsense.

it's a beautiful day..

2010-05-31T19:39:00.015+08:00

GSS is driving all the girls crazy. girls screaming out of excitement every now and then at every shopping outlet. actually im the only one screaming.
hope that the bursary is approved. bcos i really need a laptop. im tired of sharing with my sis. we would fight over the laptop esp during hectic sch schedule where assignments kick in every now and then. there would be scratches on my hands and legs(i would protect my face & head first) due to the minor catfights. sometimes, it can get really bad. lol. and i owe 2 of my dearest presents. i know u guys dont mind but yeah just wait up k :)

had chicken murtabak at zam zam and teh tarik of course. murtabak w/o teh tarik is like me going out w/0 make up. it was satisfactory i must say unlike those days. last time were the shit. everyone was crazy over it. next to my table was a group of chinese guys. i doubt they are singaporeans. do you see chinese boys having a feast at zam zam? no right? exactlyy. haha

they kept looking at my murtabak. i made them jealous by eating it in the most appetising way.:p in the end, they ordered.. egg prata thinking it was the same thing. LOL this part i really couldnt take it. on the poster or whatever shit you call it, there were four pictures of different types of prata and murtabak and , they all look like murtabak. the poster really cheat on people's feelings. busted gila sia.

they ate the egg prata like it was meant for a group of 6. seriously. i could finish the egg prata within 5 minutes by myself and yet, they are fighting to grab a bite each. in the end, the biggest size amongst the members managed to grab the last bite. lol. moral of the story, ask boys ask. ask the queen of food :)

on the bus, an old lady with the most unpleasant smell ever sat beside me. at first, i thought she was sane. untill.. i saw her fingers and toe nails especially. they are long and black and dirty. no offence im not discriminating her. im just sharing with you guys so relax ah. haha and then, the smell kicked in. i was like fuck.. wrong seat. i couldnt take it and was holding back my breath for quite some time. luckily theres some fragrance smell on my baju and i kept bending down to smell it. lol

i wonder why some people are like that.. as in insane? is it bcos they have run out of faith or have too much to take in life? or have they been handling too many heart broken rship? lol whatever it is, be strong man. each tear, there's a lesson lesson learnt and will make u a wiser person eventually. im serious. so just cry your ass off. and it's a song. haha im acting like it comes from me. :p

undisclosed desire.

2010-05-27T00:14:00.009+08:00

had a lil sweet surprise for jihah ysday night when the clock struck 12. :D

luckily her house is just few blocks away from mine. therefore, i could make my way there in a snap. well, her friends had all the cake and diy card ready. lol. it was really last min. went up the 13th floor and crept our way in. we were all holding back our laugh, well, trying to at least.

we waited directly outside her toilet before screaming happy birthday in the middle of the wee hours. malam2 dtg buat bising kt rumah orang. nak kena terajang? jihah was really shocked. her stunned facial expression is still flashing in my mind. lol so cuteeee she was wearing her very much bohemian butterfly mkcik dress. pakai belt tau. pakai belt k? Happy 20th to you again my dear, stay beautiful as you have always been. xx (:

and today, i made a trip to my's house to do project. haha first time after 3 yrs? lol.

finally managed to complete it! yes ah. made a huge mistake by taking up this elective. suck like shit. even teacher doesnt seemed to be making enough effort to explain what the f are we supposed to do.

and met twinnieeeeee, finally! i thought i was dreaming when i saw nad sitting on my bed. like, suddenly shes back? muaha and ty for the souvenir babe (:

well, i spent half an hr killing or rather, chasing away a big fat lizard ysday. of all insects, i cant stand lizards. i rather kiss a big fat wolf than touch a lizard. can you see how tremendous the impact is on me?

one last assignment before i study for my test tmrw and then 2 weeks break. baaaaaaaaaaaaik

good night readers ~

won't tell anybody

2010-05-24T22:50:00.017+08:00

and im craving for famous amos.the aroma which people can sniff and sniff and smell like 1km away (im not sure bout the distance k) and then melt and drool somewhere along

the corner of the shopping mall.

food, life's simple pleasure (;

2010-05-19T14:51:00.007+08:00

..hell

i feel that im an official food junkie:( its like drugs. you cant handle/control it. every sec, every min. in order to save myself, i buy more fruits like strawberries. with that, i would keep gobbling them up if im in my 'junkie' mood. lol. i have been consuming alot of unhealthy, oily, fattening yet deliciously filling stuffs. :( :) :D (sorry, mixed feelings ah) after eating for about less than an hr, i would visit the kitchen and start opening the fridge again. in a day, i would have prolly opened the fridge to an approximation of about 10 times. or maybe even more. i would open and look inside with the hope of finding smth nice. when there isnt anything left to eat, i would close the fridge and walk away and do the same thing repetitively. yeaaaaaaah balls.

the other day, i bought starbucks caramel frappe's bottle drink.

i was hoping it would turn out nice, but it wasnt! sadly. it was just too sweet. yucks. but still, i managed to finish it up(whats new?). and i kept the bottle in my room as decoration. haha i find it.. nice though. the only moment when i couldnt finish up my food is when im having butterflies in my stomach. those butterflies really fill me up. ok not funny. and ive tried this. to me, it tasted as lovely as it appeals to us. to me la. im not sure what it exactly means to those fussy people out there. someone, treat me please? :D

found this picture i painted with jihah. lol

i know its ugly. i remembered passers-by(esp angmohs) were looking but we just did our own thing in that big open space.. at.. was it boat quay? i couldnt even remember. was so funny:)

and congrats to those diploma graduate! :)

how great. i still hav a yr more to go. shucks. psst, i think the one on my tg is virus ah. lol tkpe la reply je la eh.

ttys guys..

iwannabeabillionairesofreakingbad.

2010-05-16T12:07:00.004+08:00

hey you guys, it's a new beginning of yet another, Sunday.

time flies that i kept tripping along the way to catch up. this week, had banking test. i skipped class just to study for it. can you believe it? can you see the spirit? but ended up? i cant even remember most of the stuffs. -.- why? bcos i was late and when i reached, most of them alr started doing and i was like.. OH GOD. even before i could calm down and settle down, the teacher asked fer my matric card and guess what? it's in my bag. so ive to walk here and there. i was sweating like a mad fat kid there. it was horrible. moral of the story, leave early pinas!! haha.

what's next? i have two assignments to complete within a short period of time. this is so fish burger. seriously.. the other day i showed teacher my itsb assignment draft. there were couples of flaws in my assignment, indeed. teacher asked me to visit the ATM machine, bring a paper and write down all the steps. nak mampus ke tu? by the time i finished writing, i think there's no more queue at the back or, i would get injured due to the crowds throwing rocks at me. and me, being the brilliant, wayyyyy brilliant one, took photos instead. couples of clicking sounds could be heard. lol but i dont care! im really trying to get a better score. im sick of getting D,D+, C, C+ all the way. ok this is so not me. ive always been so laid back.

well, have a brilliant day ahead. ttys!

uncertainty is the only certainty, there is

2010-05-12T23:39:00.006+08:00

"One should examine oneself for a very long time before thinking of condemning others."

know your stand, girl :)

hey monday.

2010-05-10T16:38:00.011+08:00

met twinnie! before she flies off. flies off or is there a nicer term? haha okay nevermind.

went to internet cafe. while surfing the net ard, 'boooms!' there was a power failure.. we were all shocked. we referring to me and nad, the little boys who were engrossed playin l4d (-.-) and including a pakcik who was playing solitaire. muahaha. the most unfair part was, only the pakcik's pc was still on. lol. he happy2 playin solitaire while we all suffered. the boys wre very noisy. they were talking funny languages most of the time. hopefully i dont remember any else im gonna talk like them too. GOSH

on a brighter note, the girl refunded nad's money when we alr surf-ed the net for an hr exactly. 2 dollars for an hr by the way.. nad's facial expression immediately changed like a happy fat kid. hahaha

and btw, have a safe trip tmrw twinnie! ♥ definitely going to miss you!! have fun k ;)

yohaaaa.

2010-05-08T22:59:00.010+08:00

had a brilliant day out with cuzzies, aunt and ibu :)

an advance mothers' day cum darwisy's 6th bday celebration.

we had a feast at hajjah maimunah (besssssssst) i ordered mee soup since i wasnt very hungry. you know why? cos i havent had the chance to shit earlier part of the day. therefore, it kept me full throughout (most of the time, at least)

anyway, we proceeded to vivo afterwards for mini shopping. tiqah bought 3 tops and me? one :(

but still, i love it. i tried on 5 tops at pull and bear but ended up not buying. lol. it's just too big and pfffft. i love the spongebob top but there's no m size! :( just not my luck.

the presence of my comical aunt made the whole outing seemed even more fun. to me, she's really a resemblance of sheila rusly. seriously. 80% similar.

here's the best part of the day. i woke up today to be surprised with a very much pleasant news. dad showed me the blackberry student plan and i asked if he could get it fer me and he willingly said yesssssssss. :) and then my brother woke up. mom immediately asked me to shut up as he did not want aboy to know. aboy and blackberry? err. aboy iphone can la. blackberry doesnt seems to suit him. however, dad still showed him the paper. hes buying it for aboy too. so touched. ive never met anyone so generous other than him. be it food, clothings, gadgets, bicycles or whatever, hes always generous about it. esp food. although its only blackberry curve (the bold one is so much cooler), im still fine with it. and now even if he asks me to make milo dinosaur in the middle of the night for him, i would willingly say yes too.

in need of a tranquility peace of mind.

2010-05-07T01:15:00.001+08:00

“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cant change, courage to change the things I can, & the wisdom to know the difference.”

marinabugismarinabugis.

2010-05-05T00:57:00.007+08:00

i have been sweating worst than a pig nowadays. do pig sweat?

anyway, went out with najihahhhhhhhh ysday:) been quite some time. the only sad thing was, jihah had forgotten to bring her sim card (or is it memory card?) and thus, zero photos were taken :( however, still had fun! we had a peep of the new shopping mall at marina. it wasnt fully ready bcos if it is, then i think its really boootiful. however it has a resemblance of vivo to a certain extend which i find okay? i mean i really thought it was something diff. then again, it wasnt fully ready. hmm.

had one of the nicest cake in my entire life (sumpah) it was a mixture of choc with banana cake (similar to nad's bday cake. hehe) it was f-ing nice!

thanks dear for the recommendation and treat. the superlicious appetising slice of cake was an extreme opposed to the lady who works there. she is just so bitter, sour and she resembles an orange. haha. her customer service skills is ZERO, telur, kosong, nothing, empty. totally hopeless. i dont see any hope of her getting a good service award. you know what? f up philippinossssssse. hmph! wellls next i gotta save fer mothers' day and jihah's bday. happy saving to me. haha. remind me to reduce on creampuff's consumption.

and i miss the besties as well. meet soon ok? teletubby hug for you all! :)

tell me what you know about dreams?

2010-05-03T00:21:00.007+08:00

im still thinking about that G2000 pants. hais

such a versatile pants. the color's pretty unique too. i mean not that it's unique, i havent had any pants of that color. im so restless right now. it has been so long since i shopped. i tutor, save money to buy the things i want. sometimes, it takes several mnoths or up till a year before i can get something. but that wasnt really the issue. it's not about how long i wait to get something. it's about whther the thing i want is still there. haha.

right now, im aiming for two pants. (gelojoh)

btw i dont know if its just me or is this girl really weird?

ive always bumped into this particular girl. lets name her Z. i find her weird to a certain extent. she likes to observe people like.. me. people like me as in a malay girl. ya she likes to observe malay girls. i caught her red handed looking at one of my stuffs. like really observing. like babi. so scary. she was observing it so intensely in the hope to see what brand it is. retarded girl. lets hope i dont bump into her again. btw the other say i saw her w/o make up, sekali no eyebrow like this (continue scrolling)

spell boring for me?

2010-05-01T20:49:00.010+08:00

I think all women go through periods where we hate this about ourselves, we don't like that. It's great to get to a place where you dismiss anything you're worried about. I find flaws attractive. I find scars attractive.

- Angelina Jolie

btw i love this song(i never told you) by her. she's so pretty! and i like her style. :)

evil of you.

2010-04-29T13:05:00.015+08:00

have to admit that my make up skills suck. i like something natural, yet clean and chic. i like nude-looking make up.

i understand the need to have proper make up tools. and i know of one which really works. i used to put on revlon foundation every now and then back then. it really gives off a perfect, flawless finish. i would love to be wearing it again but i prefer something light. fer now, im just using ZA. sometimes, i dont look like im wearing anything on my face. haha i like both matte as well as shiny looking make up look. shiny/wet looking is so sexy. im still wondering and is watching make up tutorials on youtube to study more on it.

haha i have alot of make ups at home but guess i just did not know how to play with it.

besides that, im starting on my assignment and there's progess. bagus finaz.

is looking forward to the weekends. gonna look fer kain fer rayer. i want something simple yet there's a tinge of chicness in it. ok stop it with the chic, finaz. i have all the blacks, light purple and pinkish orange. if i were to wear white, i would look like some hantu. but then again, white contrasts well with my skin. muaha. no, not white. maybe, navy? no i dont think i look good in it. hmmm how about grey? no, its too dull. hmmmmmm.

long post eh? no school today and hence i have all the time to rant bimbotically on my blog. before it turns into a haunted one, here's some entertainment. good day xx

hopes for sweetness only proves bitter.

2010-04-26T12:06:00.005+08:00

hi, im supposed to do my assignment but i got distracted. as i have mentioned in my earlier post, im not gonna watch horror movies ? well, frankly i couldnt get enough of them. haha ive watched incredible tales (about some reincarnation shit, err no comments.)

yesterday watched niyang rapik movie with my sis. haha addictive ah. as opposed to santau, this one's less scary. there's an addition of humor as well. the important thing is, shouldnt eat while watching horror movies. it'll make u lose ur appetite reaaaaaal bad. hmph!

im waiting fer darah. hmmmmmm. (how can i typed these out when im alone)

and ive cut my sis's hair bob. if i have a shop, i'll name it 'BOB'. people might think it's some fat guy shop. haha. is it funny, no? no i dont think its funny at all.

omg i better get going and start doin my assignment.

btw i just wanna share something.

if several people has been giving negative feedbacks about you,

dont you think there's something about you that has turned others off?

what makes you think they are only bad-mouthing.

not beneficial at all.

wake up and open your eyes. the world doesnt only revolves around you.

if you are are honest, sincere, people will like you no matter how ugly you are, no matter how silly you are.

sincerity is the keyword here.

yeaaaaaaaaaaah balls.

2010-04-23T23:24:00.008+08:00

has been perspiring like shit these days

what else if not because of the weather? hehehehe

seriously, my head felt like exploding whenever i stepped out of my house. even now, i feel feverish. please rain again, w/o lightning. :)

perhaps, i just might have lost 0.8 kg. JUST MIGHT. hmm. the other day accompanied nad to cdc. and i noticed some of the bikes learners were shaking. their legs were shaking? haha im referrin to the kuduts one. cannot imagine myself riding a bike. mesti kelakar eh? no offend but i find girls riding bikes attention seekers. i am so sure they are. because it's so effing rare. (but not anymore) why cant they ride bicycles instead? bicycles are red hot, cute and old school. haha lower risk of getting accidents too.

and then played badminton with the usuals (in school) lazy to mention names here. haha too many of them. it was pretty fun. i managed to defeat jon in those 3 matches. hahaha :p jia jin played as if hes in olympics. power gila. we were all taken aback. hohoho after 2 frigging years, we finally made use of the sports hall. haha gotta try out all that we have been missing.

i have school as early as at 830 tmrw. please hope my alarm clock rings cos if it doesnt, mp aku sorang. k best

roll the ball.

2010-04-21T13:45:00.012+08:00

electives are only fer 7 weeks.

and that my aunt is making satay during the weekends.

awwwwwwwwsomeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

shunshine.

2010-04-19T19:13:00.005+08:00

Wherever you go, no matter what the weather, always bring your own sunshine.

Anthony J. D'Angelo

i can give you a brand new start.

2010-04-19T12:22:00.009+08:00

hello school, with lots of love. (i mean it)

good morning year 3! wohoooooooo senior alr. no more freshie and middle class freshie. wohoooo.

HOWEVER, a guy actually asked if im a freshie? WHAT? i took it as a compliment since hes telling me that i look like 17 yr old indirectly.. haha (always look on the bright/positive side of life guys) . even my sis said i dont look like 1990. despite the negative expression that she gave off upon saying the above, still thanks! hehe.

after i graduate, i wanna dress up everyday. wear stilettos to work daily (hehe) and then when i got the money, can make over my ugly hair. insyallah.

mom bought fer me two earrings from aldo. one for me and another (supposedly) for sis. tapi nnti dia kasi hilang! taik sambal goreng.
i still couldnt get over the fact that the guy thought im a freshie. i wanna kill him. hahaok enough finaz enough.

i have alr requested for tourism, must be in PA02 if not i would be really disappointed and going to lock myself in the room fer 3 days. i dont mind making new friends. however, some are alr in their cliques and i felt really left out. they are so action. sometimes, it annoyed me so much that why am i in that position. im always in that kind of situation. grr. ok no complains.

ouh yes we had scramble eggs after 2 months! wooooo nice. flavours = scramble egg, nasi padang, creampuff, marble cake, oyster chicken noodle, thai fried rice, choc waffle. ya thats what i ate most of the time. muaha. maybe i should cut down on nasi padang eh. so unhealthy. (actually kalau letak sayur still okay)

omg i just remembered something. i only had like less than 4 hrs of sleep ysday. i am so bloody shagged right now. actually quite energetic. thank god. reason being, my sis wouldnt let me switch off the lights cos she's scared of the pitch blackness. i couldnt sleep and i remembered only shutting my eyes and tuning in to radio all day. i told her to read some prayers which i hope she did. nothing beats reciting them in your heart continuously in times like of that. actually on every single night, before sleep.

I WONT EVER WATCH GORY STUFFS EVER AGAIN. NO MORE CAUGHT IN TAPE/MOST SHOCKING MOMENTS/SPORTS DISASTERS/MALAY GHOST STORIES/RESEARCHING ON DEAD PEOPLE (haha sorry) AND NO MORE MJ12. FULLLLLLLLSTOP FINAZ. sick stuffs!

typing this out in my green nails. :)

2010-04-16T12:01:00.021+08:00

school's gonna be very boring man. i still didnt know who is in the same class as me for banking. but i definitely gonna add one more elective and that is tourism. i HAVE a feeling IF i get it, i would be in the same class as agnes. insyallah.

i have so many tasks to do within a short period of time. must need to hand up form. visit mendaki for something. must choose another elective. ala actually not so bad but they all need the 'pending' status and i find it irritating. hehs

i couldnt believe 2 months passed by so quickly. i still have so many movies to watch (online) haha

im still quite sad its gonna be over within 2 days:( better make full use of it. and im really addicted to this nothin on you song. esp the chorus. who's this bruno mars guy eh? he's really talented! unlike those typical rappers storytelling (rapping)about their gangsters shit. boooooooring. cant even relate to ther songs.

ttys!

viv-oh.

2010-04-14T01:04:00.010+08:00

olaaaaaaa.

went to vivo with twinnie only to receive a sweet surprise from the other two, mel followed by lyn. both at different intervals. lyn not only surprised me, but the rest as well. haha aww. haha i didnt expect that cos nad succeeded in distracting me. she talked about goin ion la, vivo boring la. haha

mel bought me a sweet choc truffle. aww you know i love chocolate right? i ate up 60% of it. gemok gemok gemok kedempol. thanks kay fer the gifts. im not trying to be humble or what, but i really appreciate gifts. heheheh testing my photography skills uh. btw i have alr put on the green nail polish. (girl kiasu) loveeeeee it so unique. but it looks scary on my hands though.but whatever. heh.

we ate and then lepak inside vivo. we just sat opp the entance to sentosa there fer its raining and thereby, couldnt lepak outside where the view is so much nicer. the guard kept looking at us. smack his moustache then he know.

proceeded to banquet to finish up my cake (the attempt to) thought of leaving some fer my family but forget it la. ltr they'll grow fat then its gonna be a big problem fer me. cos need to train them to lose weight. ouh fyi, i celebrated my birthday all in vivo! hahaha!

i dont know how many times im saying this but thankyou dears. :)

monday blues.

2010-04-12T11:41:00.008+08:00

i am drop dead bored today.

i have never felt this bored fer such a long time. i shall put it as monday blues. i hate mondays. i wish there wasnt any 'monday' in the calendar. school's gonna start next week. how fast.. a mixture of excited plus lazy to go to school. hafta start thinking on what to wear already. ayeer annoying. haha need to start buying plain tops. more lepak! who wants to go to school wearing bling2 shirts, shiny leggings right

btw, yesterday was really funny and tiring(for me) i wanted to watch 'tasbih cinta' (cos my favourite actor is there. ok stop it,seriously) then my bro was watching football. hence, me (being grumpy, and my sis, even the grumpier one) wanted to watch it. then my sis has got a very big mouth. out of a sudden, aboy got angry and threw my mom's lotion (trying to aim at my sis tapi attempt fail) then my sis being the big mouth, threw vulgarities at him. he got even angry and showed his 'mat rep side' muahahaha. he almost bashed my sis up but my mom managed to stop him. the kokokrunch which my sis was eating flew all over the place. i am sad not bocs of the commotion but bcos of the kokokrunch. imagine, i have to sweep it all away. (tiring okay)

as opposed to in africa or poorer countries, i bet they would excitedly pick them all up and bersyukur they get to eat something nice. i asked my sis to shut up before aboy went amok. but she refused to shut up. hence, i pushed her into the room. so they kept throwing vulgarities across each other. i know the feeling of wanting to win. when i fought with my sis, i would not shut up as well. lol. usually, we would criticise each other physically brutally. after 5 seconds, she went out of the room again (to show further unsatisfaction) hahaha. my mom tried to calm aboy down. in fact, i pitied my mom and action2 side my bro by saying 'tkmo layan dia, nanti mulut dia penat'.

my mom has warned me not to disturb aboy or he'll bash me up anytime. DO I LOOK LIKE IM SCARED? ouh actually i do. hahaha look at my body and look at his. i might just fly out of the window.

i have conquered my nightmares because of my dreams.

2010-04-11T00:03:00.005+08:00

hi?

hows you guys doing? good? oh well me? im gooooooooooooood.

been leading a very much 'fattening' life. my cousin said my arms grew fat. WHAT. SERIOUSLY.

well screw that! haha.

visited atuk and he looks wayyyy neater and 'clean' as compared to his 'healthier days'. maybe its just the clean shavened hair? or it must be the weather? or i have no further explanation to that. there were hell lotsa food and i couldnt resist them. my sis bought potato chips for me and the kids. and ate all the way while watching tasbih cinta. indonesian shows all have the same storyline. cant they come up with something new? but i am so sure i would follow jelita up. SORT of interesting. ok la enough with indonesian shit.

toodles.

thecityrocksmysock

2010-04-07T12:06:00.006+08:00

can't wait to watch the city season 2! although there are some on youtube, it's all messed up. malas nak cari. so i guess i'll just wait fer mtv to premiere it which im pretty sure would take up to what feels like100 years -.-

hello good morning.

2010-04-06T12:02:00.006+08:00

yesterday had a good time with the girls.

me and naddy went to town for she wanted to look for a more 'versatile' type of bag. haha

and yes i think you got what you need! heh.

after which headed to t2 to fetch mel. here's the funny thing eh. instead of welcoming mel, waiting for her to arrive. ended up, she waited for us instead. hahaha *do frogsplash* sorry babe. :)

me and nad, along with mel and her family headed to simpang for dinner? dinner ke supper eh? i think it's supper la. ala whatever it is.. me and nad shared creamy something something. wahlau i actually forgot what it's called? oh creamy mushroom, i think? *makes regular blur face*

it's really nice but very FILLING(dah pass dah! i kept saying fulling.)

mel's parents even surprised her with a famous amos cake. aww. so sweet. my family would never do anything of that sort. they cant even be bothered to wish me happy birthday what more buy me a cake? haha. fyi, none of them wishes me happy birthday. SAD RIGHT? they remember it, they know its my birthday but refused to wish? haha i wanna frogsplash them.

and the most annoying part is, my dad would really make a big fuss on his birthday. if possible, he wanna tell the whole world that it's his birthday. however, no one entertains him sadly. haha k sorry sidetrack.

anywayyyyyyy we headed back home afterwards. i think my curfew has been extended up till 12.23

heheheheh. the only ngative outcome i received is a frown from my parents. that's it? before they could even speak a word to nag, i would say 'hantar kawan pergi airport.' good excuse eh. then everyday come up with the same excuse? mampos k bye.

ok last story, (wow quite a long post from me)

i watched the search for madeline on oprah moments ago. and it's really sad:(

im on the verge of crying. actually, not really. cos i did not have any kids and hence i dont know how it feels like to lose one. does it feels like when you lose your precious wallet? no? hmmmmm.

i think i sound abit heartless here. haha but i could feel how shattered her heart is. she's really a strong woman.

and andddd the other day my sis treated us mac donalds! home delivery somemore. syiokkkk. as usual, i ordered this! :) i really ate alot these days. so far, i havent eaten any fruits or vege? ouh shit! and i need to eat more of macademia and almonds, and walnutt too :)

well, you guys have a nice day. today's weather is really hot man. i feel like im gonna fall sick anytime now. shit.

read my mind.

2010-04-05T12:31:00.007+08:00

i was really mad ysday that i tweet-ed rubbish. sorry eh.
i dont understand why i have to endure all these. i guess i have to be more patient than ever and maybe just buat bodoh? maybe i am getting abit too emotional but hell.. I AM HUMAN. i have feelings you idiot. i know im typing out rubbish again. i better stop and have a nice sip of nescafe. good day!

a simple style comes from an intricate mind(;

2010-04-02T00:06:00.008+08:00

the truth about me is, i won't go out without anything black on me.

it could be my earrings, slippers, sandals or whatever. and now that i got a black handbag, it really completes me. i love you, the color black. lovely lovely day, goodnight;)

bimbotic post.

2010-03-31T01:31:00.008+08:00

as you know, im really a fan of word challenge. now that i've alr hit 50++, it really craves a big smile on my face. hahaha you can call me crazy. for those who hacked the codes or whatever, so unfair. hmpf

btw, i really can't wait fer tomorrow! bcos finally mom is treating me fer my birthday. even a plain tee will make me smile all the way from the potential destination till i reach my doorsteps. the best part is, she's gonna treat me at zam zam too! oh how much i miss the murtabak. pls dont eat the mee goreng. it's very dry. if you need a nice mee goreng, it has to come from my mom;)

in my eyes, she's the best cook. awww. i would love to learn cooking from her. but she's always pushing me away from the kitchen saying that im sucha busybody. wahlau. who knows there's a marry a millionaire contest(like pisau cukur) then the girl with the best dish wins. haha im definitely gonna be one of the girls queuing. ouh, i think my sis too. hahaha

it feels so good to be ranting on my lame, bimbotic blog. it didnt make much sense does it?

frankly, i sort of regret quitting watson. if not, i would have been able to buy so many good things. padan muka aku. the problem with me(at times) is i always ended up making silly hasty decisions. i always want things to go smoothly. somebody slap me? so i defintely learnt alot. to ENDURE and be PATIENT. and now i am wasting my day at home doin nothing beneficial. i have not completed any of my mission yet. dang! but its ok i wake up late daily. i get alot of rest(i can find so many good reasons out of the bad things, no?

morning, tuesday.

2010-03-30T12:05:00.002+08:00

“We enjoy warmth because we have been cold.
We appreciate light because we have been in darkness.
By the same token, we can experience joy because we have known sadness.”
- David Weatherford

fly kite, fly.

2010-03-29T18:36:00.005+08:00

i managed to fly kite 2 days straight in a row. hahah i know how to fly one alr! first, of course you need a good kite(my cousin bought it at 20?) wahlau. and with a good one, we did not need to run like budak gila(like what the 26 march people did), literally. hahahha the kite will naturally fly up and above and would eventually tangle up with the rest. -.- if it's crowded(like of ysday over at tamp wide field)

anyway, i really like this photo editing program. i have never done anything of this sort before. usually, i would just edit the contrast. and now.. im able to.. write captions!

i like.

2010-03-26T13:46:00.016+08:00

i like the fact that today is my birthday.

i like the fact that i am a very much grown up girl(how nice)

i like the fact that im gonna receive presents(hahaha)

i like the fact that i am still young.

i like the fact that people are actually wishing me because i really thought no one remembers my birthday (aww)

i like the fact that i can ask for whatever i like. ;)

i like the fact that my birthday falls on a holiday and not on normal pathethic school days.

i like the fact that i am still breathing, very much alive. able to feel the presence of turning twenty. Alhamdullillah(:

i wish to have a very much blessful/blissful days ahead.

i wish to become an even stronger person.

i wish to receive something which would made me look twice and go'Wow'

i wish my hair would grow longer faster.

i wish i could grow taller.

i wish i could be as slim as angelina jolie in terms of tummy. (laugh at me, by all means)

i wish i would be able to complete my mission of doing sit ups daily(now having stomach cramps. fucked up. lol )

i wish to paint my room (again), buy new classic black curtains (argh can't wait)

i wish to gain more experience in every aspect of life(the goods of course)

i wish i am different and indeed i very much am:)

i wish atok will somehow open up and speak again, smile, laugh like how he used to.

i wish the best of health fer my lovely parents and family.

i wish for something sweet, something pleasant. i'll never wish fer anything more.

good dayxx

ohh la la.

2010-03-25T11:22:00.005+08:00

i wanna say have a safe lovely trip to mel dear! and im gonna miss you babe! xxxx

dont forget to say hi from me to wonder girls. hahaha

btw i am very much addicted to this best girl song. my sis's downloaded the whole album of taio cruz's. haha gilaaa!

this i promise, you.

2010-03-24T11:45:00.010+08:00

"Never underestimate the value of doing Nothing, of just going along, listening to all the things you can't hear, and not bothering."

-Winnie The Pooh

karaoke fer nearly 5 hours ysday. had fun, as usual.

some of the classic songs i chose are anakku sazali(rejected.hais) and achi achi buka pintu by late p.ramlee. lol. love his songs man.

me and twinnie proceeded to cityhall to check out something only to face a minor dissappointment. muaha.

managed to watch 'up' after what felt like 3 years.

the fat kid looks like chinese btw! haha psst, 2 days to someone's birthday. *wink*

good morning! have a nice day ahead. xx

advance(:

2010-03-22T22:42:00.008+08:00

i had fun earlier today with jiiiiiiiihah. thanks again babe fer the treat. we ate and lepak at swensens. and made alot of noise there. we even ordered the wrong ice cream cake (lol) we really thought it was the birthday ice cream. it turned out so small and like errr crook crook. therefore, we asked if could change. the girl asked, 'is today your birthday?' then jihah said, 'ya, its her birthday'. the girl said, 'ok fer birthdays, we did not charge any fer this. its free' hahaha cb siak perangai. its not even my birthday YET today. heheh

and then we played uno over at macdonalds at town. just a very lepak day. nice to catch wit u babe. :)

goodnight loves.

starryeyed.

2010-03-20T01:25:00.006+08:00

the other day, i dropped by to my cousin place to retrieve smth. and then, lepak and played games with my cousins. i was not very sure of how the game is played and hence, i did all the wrong thing. it was a cooking game btw. and then my little cousin started scolding me with all those unhappy sound expressions. haha how cute! hes actually teaching me how to do this and that. =.=

but anyway, has been visiting grandfather. he gets skinnier as days went by. so frail and 'fragile'. whatever it is, i hope God would give him the strength he needs and may he be able to at least talk a little.

my birthday is coming! an intro to the adulthood! i hope all my wishes come true. lol goodnight people!

lepak again.

2010-03-17T12:21:00.006+08:00

proceeded to tamp and lepak at starbucks while nad painted her nails. niceee! me and lyn ended up painting only one of our nails. both on the same finger but hers was on the left side and mine the right. hahah retarded. if only mel was there, more kecoh!

feel like having the blueberry muffin and chocolate chips muffin again. haha pfft

btw i always envy girls with nice buns. like of this! how to make a messy bun like that? hahah

water splash is fun(:

2010-03-16T23:57:00.006+08:00

i just splashed some water from my window to some bunch of noisy boys at my void deck) i heard an increased in noise level after the water splash. LOL i couldnt stop laughing. its so hilarious.

if not my dad who would always call up the police (his hobby) then i would always come up with smth. either shout ("diam la as loud as possible or make a haunting voice. lol) its not possible to literally go and tell them to shut up so i came up with this BRILLIANT idea instead. at first, i thought of throwing an egg(thinkin it could prolly hit one of their head) but then my sis told me it's not nice to throw an egg at midnight (i dont know which ustad teach her) it would be fun if i had thrown an egg instead. but i think my bro is one of them? hahahaha it would be fun if the egg hit his big mouth.

the best part is, right after the water splash, they immediately left. phew

i think my whole family have to thank me. the next time anyone makes noise, im gonna throw a smelly sock or chant something scary/funny. i think IF my bro is one of them, he just might be able to recognise my silly voice and throw rocks at me.

not every entry needs a title

2010-03-15T23:15:00.007+08:00

"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile."

blah blah blah.

2010-03-14T00:30:00.014+08:00

im truly unsatisfied with some of the shows i watched today. first, carlo did not win bigger loser asia. how dissappointing:( he really transforms to a much better looking guy as opposed to his recent fat figure. untill his wife's friends thought shes having an affair. hahah seeee it was that tremedous, a transformation. and david lost like 83 kg! he looks scary btw! he looks cuter when hes fatter.

i just watched the movie 300(SLOWPOKE) and i felt sad that leonidas had to die in the end. i mean the spartans themselves. what a sad ending. i wish something of a cheerful note could have taken place instead and create a better atmosphere fer the night. i still like the part where he kicked the guy into the 'hole'. freaking coooool. wish i could do that.. to someone. haha

stick to my side.

2010-03-12T23:50:00.009+08:00

alhamdullillah i managed to clear all the modules this sem:)

though results weren't that good esp referrin to a very much fucked up gpa, i am still quite content. whatever that's better than bad, is always good:)

besides that, ysday was a series of unfortunate distractions. first, there was a lizard who went m.i.a and due to the continous spraying of baygon, i had no choice but to breathe in the unpleasant odour. my whole house reeked of baygon. ya, it was horrible.

then, there was a minor car crash just outside my block. ther was actually a loud thud. sounded like as if a severe one had taken place but it was the contradiction. was alr imagining some gory stuffs. hahah thank goodness it was only a minor onethanks to that i missed out on antm cos i was busy peeping from the window grill. hahahah it was a free show!

"even when you've paid enough

been put upon or been held up

with every single memory

of the good or bad, faces of luck

don't lose any sleep tonight"

fastest finger first!

2010-03-10T02:11:00.006+08:00

ysday was a blissful day with the girls.
we played games over at mindscafe followed by movie at lido. :)

as usual, i suck when it comes to board games. think its in the genes ah. haha the funniest game ever was ugly ugly ugly. the aliens look just as cute as mel. haha nah im just kidding.

Clumsy Act part I

due to my clumsiness, i spilled my drink. and the cards became sticky. yikes!

dont understand why am i so clumsy. when i was younger, i dropped a plate with some dish which was supposed to be given to a cat. muahaha

and then there was this game similar to heart attack. had fun pressing the bell and slapping one another's hand. now my hand's blue black. it was seriously funny. besides that, theres also this game called true colors in which a qn would be choosen and then u have to ans it honestly. very in-te-res-ting. im still pondering on why none of them wants to eat my floor if it could be eaten?? hahaha !!??

after having had enough of games, we proceeded to orchard fer movies. lyn wasnt there she had to leave. sigh. but anyway, you should watch alice. it's really nice. and the two fat boys are just so adorable!! hahaha they always have this perplexed look on their faces. haha feel like slapping their buttocks!

Clumsy Act part II

We actually sneaked in some food. oh btw, we ate 2 burgers fer the day. very healthy!

and then while i was trying to take a bite of the scrumptuous looking mc chicken, the chilii dropped on my top. and thereby, i have to actually walked ard with that red spot (size of china) ard town. but luckily we were on our way back alr.

it was a lovely lovely day indeed:)

hot hot heat.

2010-03-08T17:20:00.005+08:00

even after having a good bowl of ice cream, i still feel the heat in my body.

even after drinking a good cup of cold barley, i still feel the heat.

even after eating a good bowl of food salad, i still do.. feel the heat.

haha ok stop it.

accompanied nad to warehouse sales at genting lane. well, somewhere there.

nad bought a pretty cute colored-looking bag. happy fer you. haha:)

the best part is! we met arfah there! random gilaaaaaaa but what's best is that we got to cut queue (the queue was horrible) if we hadnt met arfah, i think we would still be queuing up till now. so ada hikmah!! hahah seriouslyyyy. k sorry, im too excited about the whole hikmah thing. good to bump into her literally. i mean good to see her after so loooooong. :)

toodles♥

retarded issues

2010-03-07T11:50:00.007+08:00

There's this insane cum immature someone who is very annoying.

i've never seen or yet to see someone as CRAZY as that someone. (i think i have. haha) that someone eh has ridiculous temper issues and not as patient as I AM. neither omparisons nor differences are made here though. bcos i dont compare, i dont call people fat(im lying). i dont scrutinize others. just some logical issues being brought up. i think if that someone continues to behave/react this way, that someone will be warded into imh soon under heavy temperamental issues which could result in violence . lol.

im not trying to be funny but seriously, one should learn how to control his/her temper issues. and then throwing grudges on others won't solve your fucking problem. if you wanna get angry, just be angry with urself. look at you so stupid fer getting so angry and then not being able to smile. what a great loss not being able to smile on a beautiful sunday? lol. please use more of your brain. pls think before you react. before you spit out anything funny.

you just ruined my almost perfect sunday. ARGH THANKS NOW IM THE MAD ONE. lol

no stress

2010-03-06T23:32:00.006+08:00

i couldnt stop eating. or to be rather specific, MUNCHING.

frankly, after every 1 hr that is. im not sure if u find it ok but its somehwtt bizarre? err scratches head till hair falls off.

anyway, i cant wait to watch the final espisode of biggest loser asia. haha (i know the fact that i can watch it on youtube but i refuses. hehe i guess?) and carlos definitely gonna win bcos he seriously slims down and is so much better looking now. with the facial hair and all. so hotter looking. wooo. k bye

and i actually couldnt really see the alphabets on this keyboard and i am getting very much pissed alr. tired of backspacing!

time waits for no man.

2010-03-04T11:50:00.005+08:00

good morning march:)

can't wait fer wednesday (tkmo sakit lagi pls)

miss you babes! *teletubbies hug*

yspyg

2010-03-01T15:52:00.001+08:00

You're no fool

If you say NO,

Ain't it just the way life goes?

People fear what they don't know ..

rolled into view,

2010-02-26T23:13:00.008+08:00

oohh we make a great horrible looking couple. hahaha

OHMYGINGER this is my faveret. cool gila siak:)

hell.. photoshoot was awesome. muahaha;)

well you guys should play ard with this. since the start of holiday, ive been meddling with unnecessary silly things like these. and ive started reading! omg ive found my cup of tea at last, lovelyy and peaceful peaceful night;)

we tigers.

2010-02-25T02:14:00.025+08:00

its 2.13 in the morning and i cant do anything now. i am supposed to make my way to the kitchen to wash my face but if i were to make even the slightest noise, im afraid it would ring the alarm to my parents that i came back late and they would rock bottom me. haha and i wont be typing this out if the laptop hadnt been on all alonng. my sis enjoys wasting electricity. brrr

anyway, what do you think i should do now? just go and take a shower and lied " my name is khan is a 4 hrs show la" or just sleep in my dirty and unadorned blouse. yawn

i have such an interesting tale to share here. whatever it is, i am bloody tired been out from 12 till 2. and my legs are as wobbly as jelly right now and i feel so ugly now. ive never felt uglier. oh damnn. haha ok stop it la. anyway, it was one helluva interesting long walk cum chit chatting wit nad from tamp till home. so u must be wondering why. pls dont say cos the bus's gone. not a good excuse. :p bcos we were craving to walk. just like a pregnant woman who craves fer smth to eat.

but anyway, u guys should really watch my name is khan. all my faverets are acting. and it touched my heart and made me cry a little in the cinema. unlike the girl beside me (who else if not nad), she cried a river. she wanted to flood the cinema but luckily the show has several funny scenes. the guy in front of us laugh like bapak dia. he seriously thought hes at hm. but anyway i think its quite funny. and then, theres also this makcik next to me who couldnt stop muttering. an example would be, 'ahh padan muka dia'. and in another sec, 'HAHAHA'. so noisy i tell you! actually im exaggerating. muahaha

next time must ask her husband to scotch tape her lower face. seriously her sound expressions were all unnecessary. only mine is. and oh, i unaccidentally sat on her drink. hahaha but anyway, the movie is a good one it makes you be more positive in every single way.

i had fun. its a great day applying jobs. (though it suck)

not untill ur mom nagged at you. blahblablah

its 232 now and i think i should go.. and bath!!