in remembrance of the strong man

everything happened too fast. i can't quite believe my one and only grandfather left on earth is gone. he's gone for good, i'm sure. the moment sis told me he had passed away, i really thought she was joking. i was otw back from work. i texted sis again to reassure. she replied w a betul la sial in the text. the word sial indicated that it's true cause it very well showed that she was pissed i regarded that as a joke. upon knowing the truth, i ran my way from ubi to my place as i was taking bus 5(it doesn't stop directly at my area) and i know i had to rush. i have never ran in public alone before besides cross country. -.- anyway,

when i reached my aunt's place, there laid atok on the bed motionless. the feeling was indescribable (not in a good way) my heart sank like the sunken ship titanic. started tearing up upon kissing his forehead. everyone was in tears.

the second day was way emotional than i ever thought it would be. atok was covered in white. extreme sadness took over. the people whom i did not expect to cry, did. my brother was one of them. i didn't expect him to sob in such a pitiful manner. my little cousin, darwisy was another. he was sobbing as if he was being abused. it was abs emotional.. after that, headed to the cemetery for burial. that was my first time ever witnessing my loved one being buried. the 21 yr old imam (yes, extremely young. hats off to him. i'm impressed to a large extend) talked bout the afterlife. that we shouldn't neglect the five times daily pray etc.

it was like an electric shock penetrating through my body.

i've been sobbing for days. only time is gonna heal everything. i can't even remember when was the last time i communicated w atok.

i love you atok Man. you're a funny humbled responsible caring pious man. you'll always be in my memory. i may not be your best grandchild but you're my best. Rest in Peace :')